Everything's not going on well for me. I feel like i'm trying so hard to be happy when i'm crushed inside. Perhaps i'm in denial of how i am exactly feeling right now. I hate myself. I hate myself for falling in love with you. But it would have felt worst if i bottle up my feelings any longer. Every now and then,i fake a smile so that no one will know how i really feel deep inside. I don't own a space in your heart and why am i thinking of you day and night? I feel miserable and down. You don't seem to care either. I regret,i really do. I shouldn't have told you how i felt about you. Now,you're treating me like a stranger. It makes my heart ache whenever i think of how you said "i love you" at the end of every call. What happened? I wanna know what made us drift apart. I think too much,yes? I love you so much yet i hate you for what you've done. Why why why why why why why must you have a place in my heart? I HATE you for making a fool out of me. Despite hating you,i hope you know i miss you as well :( Urhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

I feel like ending it all. Wtf.
Fuck school upside down.

(copied from my livejournal)

i can't wait to meet up with FINNY BABY,OKASHA BBY,AND YDEEEEE this friday! ^^v
k best.