Take it or leave it?

I swear i didn't intend to lie to you. At that time,i thought you were like some other ordinary friend i made online. So basically,even if i did told you the truth,i thought we wouldn't go far,that's why i told you a WHITE lie,perhaps? But never did i knew,it was a misconception. From thinking you were that guy with sarcasms,you turned into someone whom i really admire. And i knew,i was living with lies. But if i hadn't lie,would you still had treated me so dearly? So i guess the first few months knowing and being with you was the most memorable. I enjoyed having your accompany almost every night on the phone. You was always the one making jokes and i'll laugh whether or not it's really that funny. It's until i realised that i've fallen for you real hard. And yes,really hard. I'd miss you even after only one night not talking to you. I know,you know,what happened during those days. I loved you. I had missed you every single day. I yearn for your call every night till morning. But i guess,it just didn't work out. Was it a one-sided love? Were you just playing along? I'm sorry if you think i was pushing all the blame on you. By doing that,i suppose i can totally get rid of you out of my mind. Maybe,somehow,it helped me. If calling me a bitch helps you,then go ahead. I just wanna let you know,i've never hated you. How i wished,i could turn back time..


Sorry :(