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This actually cracked me up! HAHAHA. I bet you can't laugh without smiling.
PLEASE WATCH!

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I don't wish to create dramas and actually post about how sad or upset I feel. But right now, I guess I have to?

"And pray that everything will be fine for you. In good health and whatnot. You have my blessings. Take care."

So, thats it. His last words to me. And it's all thanks to me. I thought I wouldn't shed a tear, wouldn't feel upset when I actually did, after reading his messages. I thought we were in denial, thought everything was weird. How much dumber can I be? I knew I miss you. I've loved you. Thank you so very much for loving me. For being there for me. But I know I've not been there for you, for what you've been through. I am really really really sorry. You said you don't hate nor loathe me one bit. It's not that I don't trust you but I've hurt you. I've heard about your past falls and I've dissapointed you. I didn't make good of my promise. I've always enjoyed talking to you on the phone. And your never ending sweet messages. Your lame jokes. Sorry for my sarcasms, of course.

I think i should stop here lah ehhhhhhh :(

Thank you, Fairuz. We're still friends now, aren't we? Like you've said. You've got my blessings, too.