emotionally hurt :(

Ya ya, so much for our studying-geography-without-any-distraction plans. This is what we end up doing. What fools we are! Sadly.

Raf came over to my place after school. I cooked maggi while she ate whatever Mom cooked. I succeeded in not eating rice for today (only). Three cheers for that! Haha, k wtv. Ate for what seemed like hours when it had only been thirty minutes. How stupid of me.. Anyways, I thought that Mom would change the password but no she didn't, so we started our daily routines. Youtube, blog, etc.

Today started off bad. I broke down in tears (haha shut up) in the morning. Ahh, I don't know how long will I be able to bear with it. Fought with Mum in the early morning. She's being downright unREASONable. She thought I was giving her shitty face expressions when she was talking. Know what? I actually gave her a smile (or rather, a grin) and she thought that way. She completely had the wrong idea. How can I not be pissed????? Omg. Fuck. Idk what to say now. She shouted at me at the front door when people were walking pass. God, even if she's got skin thick enough, I don't. I was embarassed like god knows what. As if that wasn't enough. This was what she texted me:

"U stupid Allysa, no manners! If u're not happy staying with me then go out and pack ur things and try to ind another mother that can tolerate ur ungrateful character. U r a disgrace to me Allysa because none of my kids is as no manners as u."

Ah kay, so how fucking sad is that? No. I did not reply. Uh, k this made my mood shitty. Haha, feel like crying this minute. I am fully aware that I'm not as 'good' or 'well behaved' like your kids in Philippines. I am an ungrateful daughter like what you said. I don't deserve you in any way at all, ok? Oh wells, you guys are probably having a bad impression on me now. But pls, you do NOT know the full story so yah. Wtv lah.

Am having English Paper 1 tomorrow. Composition + letter/situational writing. (Not sure) Haha, see. I am not even sure what's on the paper. May I do well!

Right.. So I have Bio and Maths remedial tomorrow. It's gonna be a tiring day again! Suxxxxxxx. I feel so tired suddenly. Tired of dealing with emotional barriers and such. Only thing I'm looking forward to now is June hols.

American Idol later! Kris Allen = fucking sexy.

Btw, table of glory ended yesterday. Aww come on! I don't even know that it was the last episde yesterday :( sucks. And the new drama seems boring to me..

:D

Ah shit, parents will be called tmr 'cus of 'the problem'. Thanks ah, am so enjoying it. Toodles!

P/S: it's dangerous to be blogging about school stuffs and bla3.