I've been having stomachaches and right now,i really feel like shitting! Okay,i've been bearing it for a few minutes. Pardon me,this is random. Before i mention anything else,thousand apologies to Nisryna for not being able to make it today. I am really sorry. I know it was a last minute decision of mine. But you know my mom. I know you're kind of mad at me for that. I'll make it up to you some other day ay? :]
"Don't reserve your best behavior for special occasions. You can't have two sets of manners, two social codes - one for those you admire and want to impress, another for those whom you consider unimportant. You must be the same to all people."
-Lillian Eichler Watson
That quote somehow makes sense. Well,literally it does. Sometimes,parents just expects that of us. I mean,not in their presence,but either friends or relatives. Maybe i tried too hard sometimes but it isn't me. If only they could somehow understand the goodness of this quote. Besides,to human is to err. Everyone makes mistakes. I've never defined myself as someone who's perfect but people still accept me for who i am. Love people for who they are and do not expect them to change just because you want them to. You are who you are no matter how much they hate you. They'll come to know the goodness in you one day.
*coughs* Hahaha. Since i've got nothing to talk about,that was a topic i would like to talk about. I'm having a headache. The result of being on the computer for so long,i guess? I don't really feel good. Mom found out i misplaced my concession card this morning. She got so pissed and I obviously got so scared. Bleagh. I can't go out if i don't find out the location to renew my concession. Bestie gave me a piece of information^^ So i'm probably gonna have my photos taken tomorrow. I promise not to be so careless again. (hopefully!) I feel like going for a jog later.
"If you aren’t going to say something directly to someone’s face, than don’t use online as an opportunity to say it. It is this sense of bravery that people get when they are anonymous that gives the blogosphere a bad reputation."
-Mena Trott
This goes to the online community. I wonder what have you got against the people in the cyberworld when you don't know them personally. Maybe you're just jealous? Is that it? Bullshits.
Don't ask me out during this few weeks. Hoping to go on 26th(gig) though. We'll see how things go between me and mom. And i think i've quitted smoking. A round of applause. I'll see how long this goes on. Nyeh. I don't like it. I don't like it that we're no longer close now. We rarely meet up now. Who knows,in time to come we might even lose ourselves. As the saying goes,nothing lasts forever. Saying 'i miss you' does not compare to keeping our relationship strong. We're all words but no actions. What is this supposed to mean? Sometimes i've got the urge not to say those 3 words anymore. Please don't blame me for uttering all these. But i honestly think everything is drifting us apart. I strongly think we're gonna go on our seperate ways pretty soon. I mean,just me as an individual. I'm always the one who's left out. As much as i miss you guys,i am pretty much grounded. I don't know what will happen in time to come. Those laughters,jokes,gossips and everything might just be gone in a second. Perhaps sticking those whom you see every single day of your life is much more of a blessing because we get to see them 24/7. What i'm trying to say is,we are REALLY drifting apart ;( It's better if we remain as friends. Merely normal friends. No,i'm not over exaggerating and neither am i insecure this time. If you think i expect alot,then you're wrong. I expect nothing. I'm spilling out my thoughts. That's all.
(i miss my old hair.)
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